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I have had so much on my mind lately that I haven't even bothered to blog about any of it. I just don't know where to begin. I guess I can start with the dreams I have been having. Last week I had a dream that my husband was dying, we knew the day and everything. In my dream I wouldn't go to bed because I knew if I did he would be gone...

Ok so my latest dream... My mom was having surgery and we couldn't get any information out of anyone. By the time I heard from someone they told me that they put my mom on a bus or a train to some other hospital, by herself. I freaked out because I knew she would be barely conscious and was scared of where she might end up.
My hubby and I got in the car and found her on the side of the road on a cold snowy night. Death followed....

Lovely dreams right? Both dreams felt so real, although the second one I felt like it brought me back to the whole year she was sick and all of the information we lacked through her entire illness. All I ever really wanted to do was wrap her up and take care of her... I know I couldn't have done more but I wish I could. It's been almost a year now and I really hope and pray that her death will never be in vain and that I can do something big in remembrance of her someday....