Blessings

All I want to say is I'm too tired to blog tonight, but would that really count right now as a viable entry here. I was transfixed to the tv tonight as I watched my new fave show, "Grey's Anatomy." Every time someone is dying on that show or hooked up to tubes and monitors, I get a little sad. Maybe that's the wrong show for me to be watching because really, it's a hospital show, everyone is hooked up to tubes and monitors!

So there was a shooter on the show tonight and he was nuts and going after everyone. But the part that tugged at my heartstrings was when Meredith Grey miscarried. I lost my first baby when I was about 6 weeks pregnant. It felt like my world was crumbling all around me. This woman lost her baby as she is simultaneously losing her husband and friends all around her.

One thing I have learned is that blessing are hidden and have a funny way of not being revealed right away. Christopher was my blessing after we lost our first baby. Would I have rather not miscarried? Of course! But, would that mean I wouldn't have my Bubbas?

Sometimes I think I'm not appreciative enough of all the blessing I have been given. I don't laugh and have fun enough, and I don't really take the time to slow down and enjoy the moment, although cliche, they are fleeting.

The three men in my life are all blessings. My husband, who pulled me out of the darkness and showed me love. I love him so much! Christopher, my angel baby after my first baby went to be an angel. Evan, my angel baby and companion as I was losing my mom. My three men are my three angels here on earth and tomorrow, I am going to thank God often for them and slow down and love them!